Technically summer doesn't officially end until late-September, but wtf ever - Labor Day just passed, school is back in session, and the carefree days of chillin' at the beach already feel like another lifetime ago. (...even though the sun is still scorching...) So, summer is over in my world. lol And here's my review of my Summer of '19.
I took on a lot of new challenges this summer, I held space for a lot of different people this summer. I worked out hard this summer, I chilled like a mf'er this summer. Overall, Summer of '19 was a dream! It wasn't without its milestones, disappointments, revelations, and learning experiences, though. In that sense, Summer of '19 kicked my ass - and I have the bruises to prove it.
I want to go into detail about a lot of these things, yet I feel like each bullet point above could be its own long-ass blog entry. haha. I definitely have a lot to say... right now, though, I just want to express how grateful I am to be able to be here, now, in this space - with all of my issues, flaws, hopes, dreams, disappointments, and aspirations.
My life isn't perfect; I am a nerdy, beautiful mess - yet deep down, in the depth of my soul, I am at peace. I never thought I could feel like this for an extended period of time... yet I do. And so, I am grateful. Grateful beyond words or measure - humbled, even - that this is my life. How blessed I am to be living it.
I have been stuck on the color blue, lately - the color of truth; the color of the throat chakra. This Summer of '19 has been a radical three months of truth, for me. Truths being revealed or uncovered, truths being honored and acknowledged, truths being felt and worked through - truths slapping me across the face and punching me in the gut in an attempt to finally get my attention so it can be revealed, and honored, and felt, and worked through... and so on, and so on... (welcome to my truth cycle!)
If I'm being honest: I'm tired.
I did A LOT this summer, and I'm effing exhausted.
I'm ready for the sun to turn down a lil bit.
I'm ready for the seasons to change.
I'm ready to welcome cooler temps and get cozy in one of my 8 bazillion hoodies.
I'm ready for something new.
I'm ready for ME to be something new... er, rather: something different... more mature... better.
To be in a new space, in a new place.
Somewhere beautiful... and refreshing. Somewhere I can be proud to call home.
I have some ideas of what that will look like... just have to muster up the courage to fully commit to it.
...we shall see... :)
Happy September, y'all!
We nine months into 2019.
Friendly and loving check-in: how are you doing?
You got this!
Keep your head up, Queen.
Mad love and respect to/for ya.